FIVE

On the new year's eve

I'm all alone, I believe

No companion in my sight

Just like any other night 

It's not the same

Unlike our old days

When we used to sit 

And talked through the night 

Enjoying the supper with no regret 

That we might blotted the next daylight

While the children blow their trumpets happily

In the blankness of night 

Shall I clear my sight

In my dream we are reunite

As the sun shines so bright

But I have a faith 

That this pain will worth the wait

Never again I'll learn to trust

Except if I must

To someone who is truly worthy 

My love, my longing

For friendship.

The Closure

I have a secret

I wish of not keeping

I wish for you

But no, I won't say it

Keeping my lips sealed

I know you're happy now

Happy as you can be

Playing at the highest cloud

With rainbows in the summer sky

But I just keep watching

From where I'm standing

It sure is raining

No, I'm not crying

I will keep smiling 

Though inside, 

I know I'm aching

I pray for your happiness

And I will seek mine 

In someone else's hand

p/s: I really like this picture..no, it doesn't belong to me..how I wish

Peacock's Painting

I am playing
With colours
They give me 
The pleasure
Being a little girl
So 
I paint my face
Of sunkiss matt
I smudge my lids
With copper and lime
I peep my eyes 
Of charcoal and mink
I blush my cheeks
With a healthy peach
I colour my lips
With a rosy tint
Then,
I go outside
On a sunny day
What a clear blue sky
With a smile on my face
But you 
Can only see my dolly face
For what's inside 
Remain silent
But,
My true colours 
Can't be erased
For I am a disgrace 
Of my own place.

Masuyama Sessai, painted during Edo period, 19C

Changing

People change

So do I

I used to be nice

All warm and soft

Until now

When I know 

The world 

Is made of fire and ice

Too many pains

I couldn't take

I trade my heart

With stones and rocks

Now I am all

Bitter and cold

I may have an angelic face

With the devil's thoughts

I'm just an actor and

The world is my stage

So, thank you 

For turning my smiles

Into dust.

My Name Is M.E.zanorhanna

I am sweet and sarcastic;
I am nice and bit bitterly;
I am quite and I crap a lot;
I am shy and I love to laugh;
I am mouthful with a smile on my face;
I can be funny and moody at the same time;
I can be sensitive and heartless of the world;
I like to imprison myself in this room but I mooch around;
I like to sing but I never write my own song;
I like to write and do my sketches inside my mind;
I fall too quickly but never had my heart broken;
I have so many crush, I lost count
because the boys never make me lose my track;
I am the knight in the shining armour of my own fantasy;
and I am the moonbeam of my darkened night.

Blue Midnight

It's ten minutes to midnight
I'm all alone in this room
Trying to ignore my surrounding
Trying to create my own world
Of fables and fiction

It's five minutes to midnight
I looked outside my window pane
It's a dark blue sky
No moon lit up the horizon
Not even a trace of a stardust
I never seen such a gloomy night 
It's as if they are imitating what I hide inside
Oh, my..
Never mind this heart

It's near midnight now
I picked up my phone
Dialed up a familiar number
Relieved to hear your voice

Peace upon you, my friend
Pardon my ill-mannered
I just want to say
I miss you,
I pray for your safety
In this world and hereafter

'til we meet again
May you dream of our happy days together
Goodnight and
Sleep tight

Blushed

Blush Blush
Go away
I wish that you don't stay
I'm just too shy
I feel like to cry
I ain't bluffing

Am I that obvious?
Is it too visible?
This feelings are surfacing
Through my skin
My heart is beating
Faster and louder
And now I'm sweating
Like I'm this new weather girl

Dear my Blusher Brush
We don't need any more dust
On the apples of my cheeks
As they will turn into
Continuos coral
Whenever I heard his name

Blush Hush
I try so hard not to lose it
But my face keep on flushing
As we sit on this old bench
Saying nothing, Not a word
Slip through my pale lips

I'm not a solid scarlet
Neither a daring rouge
Nor a pretty pink
Just a sheer tan porcelain
But you make me feel like..
I'm the ultimate velvet crush.

Half My Deen

Half my deen
Lies within he
He,
I miss dearly

O' Lord,
To whom do I owe
These left ribs
To whom will I give
This little heart to
This heart of mine
Piled up
With a beautiful feeling
That won't diffuse nor disappear
I promise this
Amin

I can't help but
To believe
Somewhere, on this land
That he's meant for me
Just like how
You created me
To be his.

Ya Allah
Please
Let he be
Well and bless
Let he grow stronger in Iman
and follow the Sunnah

My feelings for you, dear
Is so overwhelming
I just can't ignore
It's calling..
Cause you mean
My half deen.

Scarlet Letter

Let me tell you a secret

Of my wildest dream

I never meet 

Such a wonderful creature

As he

Not because of his looks

Neither his clothes

But because of his heart

I fall in love

Because of your halo

I can see the light

I can't hear your voice

But your eyes tell me all

I can feel your love

Running through my veins

You treat me

Like your long living queen

Don't let this end now

I beg on my knees

He only offer me a smile

As my hand reach out to him

and whisper to my ear

Do not worry,

For the day will come

We'll be together

By a true bind.